Bullet Dumas | Hain Ka

Being a lowkey Dumas music fan (his political views, values, and stand, included) , I always have these curious eyes and ears on him secretly and excitedly, all the time. Something that I added on my personal shortlist of Bullet Dumas gems is this particular 2018 pushover Waray track called “Hain Ka” (Saan Ka). 

I am in no way equipped to comprehend what the song conveys initially but the avalanche of emotion and the outpour of passion and longing in its very core was substantially overwhelming that neglecting it would be an impossibility once heard. It's just hard to keep a blind eye once you wake up with this track. 

Google to the rescue, I eventually found out the heartbreaking meaning behind the beautifully written piece. That in immersing much of myself on the song, I needed to step a little back in time, make amends with my younger self, and reevaluate some few decisions I had to make in the past. For the record, this track was among those few songs that gave me the saddest tears on Saturday nights – in trudging through helplessness of turning back in time – regrets, endless of it. It actually speaks volumes of hope but was contaminated with grains of truth that somehow, an inevitable goodbye, an unsurpassable distance, and a wall too high to overcome hinders such ray of hope. There really are just those certain moments in our lives when the best thing left there is, is to accept. 

And, as Stephen Schbosky put things in perspective – things change, friends leave, and life doesn’t stop for anybody. So I take comfort in knowing that maybe, things are destined just the way they are. Or maybe not?